Was You.

I want to cry I want to wallow in my sorrow
I’m disappointed I really want to kill myself
I’m suicidal

Will you blame me for feeling this way?

Total defeat in my emotions
Where I feel I could not get up
Where I feel I should sit here
Watching the world go by
Watching & watching till I die

Will you forgive me for feeling this way?

I feel I’m fucked up.
In this moment I called life

Please, don’t tell me to get up
For this moment I just want to rest
Buried my eyes in my pillow
Wishing I just die

That train moving like a speeding bullet
Will be going for the cliff
Cliff called death

And I’m inside
And I don’t want get off
This is my train

I don’t want to get off
I don’t want to get off

Let me join the light
Where I disappear into thin air

Will you remember me?
Will you stop being angry at me?
For forgetting my reason to continue living
Was you.

The Ten Emotions Of Power - Part One ; By Anthony Robbins

From Anthony Robins "Awaken The Giant Within"

What have I learn't & to teach back?

I believe there are four basic ways in which people deal with emotion.
Which of these have you used today?

1. Avoidance

All of us wants to avoid painful emotions. So we try to stay from situations that made us feels those emotions & worse some of us refuse to feel at all. Though using avoidance will protect us short term, it keeps us from truly feelings which in turns doesn't help us to evolve as we should. And in the end, we can't avoid emotions.

A more powerful approach is to find the hidden, positive meaning in those emotions that we once thought as negative.

2. Denial

Denying that we are feeling certain emotions by telling ourselves lies; saying that it doesn't feels that bad but still inside we still questioning our very situations. Trying to pretend that nothing is wrong will only create more pain. By ignoring the message that our emotions tries to convey, it will intensifies until we have no other choice but to take notice.

We must learn to listen to our emotions clearly and use it for our own betterment.

3. Competition

Some people wear emotional badge by declaring their situations are worse than others, their emotions are much more serious than others.Instead of fighting or dealing with their painful emotions, they dwell in it. This is the deadliest trap because dwelling in painful emotions is like digging your own grave & in the end not only a person find its hard to get out, they might not want to get out at all. At that is clearly very destructive.

4. Learning & Using

The above three ways on how we deal with painful emotions must be overwrite by the fourth way which is learning & using. Painful emotions are signals that tells us that we should be doing somthing; a call to action.

If you want to make your life really work,you must make your emotions work for you.

Realize that the emotions you are feeling at this very moment are a gift, a guideline, a support system, a call to action.If you suppress your emotions and try to drive them out of your life, or magnify them & allow them to take over everything, then you're squandering on of life most precious resources.

You are the source of all your emotions;you are the one who creates them & you can feel any way you choose at any moment in time.